Every year always seems like a new beginning, full of so many possibilities.
Well this year 2012 is an ABSOLUTE NEW BEGINNING for me.
Without getting into too much personal junk, etc... When I married the love of my life (19 years ago) I walked into a situation I never expected....one that would alter our lives, the lives of our children and several loved ones beyond our control. I have fought all this time to make things right for Sam and our family with his family. .....always feeling like the cause of such a horrible situation. Though he always insists it would have happened no matter who he'd married. Always feeling cheated that so many people in his life/family did not get to know the real me for various reasons. It has consumed me....trying to make things work, trying to make things right. Sam and are solid and happy, but have been through so much we shouldn't have because of the actions of others. I have finally come to the realization (Thanks to my loving husband).....I CAN NOT CHANGE A SITUATION I DIDN'T CREATE and I CAN NOT CHANGE THE PAST. I can only be who I am and whether others choose to get to know and love the real me ... is only a choice that they can make. I have wasted so many years....it's time for a change!! It's time to embrace the BLESSINGS in my life. So I am starting again....reshaping, trying to not think about the negative or the past ...My focus is on the HAPPINESS of my husband, children, myself, family and friends. I have never really included myself before. I am taking walks, getting back to many things I'd sat aside... ART and really whatever makes me happy..... pushing forward and stepping out of my safety zone to do those things I've set aside for ...."someday". And of course continuing to share JOY with others through donating my ART....which makes me HAPPY!!
So if you know me you know I've always said I AM NOT A PAINTER!! Never have been and have no desire to be. I have no desire to sit and copy a flower, building, cup, etc with a paint brush and try to make it just like it looks....blah to me that is stiffling and no fun. Now I do love to paint backgrounds or add a touch of paint to my ART sometimes.
announced a new online adventure ~ CANVAS CREATE! I decided...HEY I'm IN!!! So I signed up.
So here it is my version for January's Canvas Create. I decided to put canvas on a journal and make a journal of Love for my Hospice donations.
of course when it comes to making ART...I didn't follow the instruction completely...but embraced the knowledge and guidance in my own ARTistic way.
I didn't use a stretched canvas I used a journal that I covered in canvas.
not really sure I like these pre-primed canvas sheets....and may try other canvas in the future.
I didn't have the exact paints that Donna used....but do have the same brand in colors I love so used those. and apparently I'm more of a blender than she is too LOL and made a second canvas for the back while I had the paints out. Oh and I used different types of tapes...cause I love the texture of print.
I also didn't have a brush like she used for her flower...so made do....but will be searching for one :)
When I got to the point to add the word....I decided that it's just so hard to make a journal for a hospice patient not knowning their exact situation and what word might offend or upset....so I decided to write the word JOY (the reason I make the journals...to give them a touch of JOY) with glitter glue and then spread it out with my fingers --- sadly doesn't show up on the picture.
But felt it still needed something so added the rub on to make my finished journal :)
and of course I had trouble getting a good picture...but I tried LOL
